Suffering From TMI

You know there's some people you just can't share with--they use it to their advantage. I really feel like that with someone I work with. I got my annual review yesterday and my boss marked me down in areas that I felt I have really improved. But because I vented to her about some stuff, it's like I get the punishment. Well, I hve already cut her off from personal information about me--she totally ripped me about my divorce last time (I have some points to make about that later)...but I thought I could still discuss work aspects with her. But, I am a strong personality and my boss doesn't really go for that much. It's funny how men can have that type of personality, however in a woman, it makes you a b*tch. But, you know--it's this personality that has gotten me further than most people around me, so I won't give it up. What was funny though was that it wasn't 10 minutes after my review and a friend who is pregnant called to tell me she is having a boy and after I hung up from talking to her, my boss had the nerve to ask me who was pregnant...HELLO--you are cut off from my personal life!!!
Anyway, I listened to a sermon by Ed Saucier yesterday that was absolutely awesome! It was about divorce and the way the faith community reacts to it--what a great sermon. I admit, my toes were stepped on a bit, but I was definitely uplifted by some great points that he made.
Here's the link:
mms://media14.cqservers.com/communitychurch/Ed-Sermon-February-25-2007.mp3

If you listen to the sermon, please listen to the entire thing--it's important you hear the whole message. That's part of our problem today--we listen until we hear what we want, but forget there are things we probably need to hear as well.

Paper is Done!

Well, I gave my presentation and turned in my paper last night--YEAH! That's a definite load off of me. I am seriously burnt out on school. We still have one more class meeting to go before this class is officially over, but I have got the worst out of the way. I CONSTANTLY remind myself that I have just 3 more classes to go...just 25 class meetings, just 6 more months. I try to phrase it any way possible to make it easier to swallow. It's still hard.
I only got to watch half of Grey's Anatomy--loved it though. McDreamy's passion for Meredith is worth envying. He never gave up on her. Even when she gave up on herself. Everyone needs their own McDreamy. That's what I want--a McDreamy!
Weston is doing so awesome in basketball! He's a regular little pro! I couldn't believe how well he handles the ball, how well he dribbles. But it's his focus that makes him so good. His determination. I am so proud of him. He has also become a regular little helper around the house. He does his "chores" and never complains (sure wish Kylie would catch that bug). I couldn't do it without him. If I had two Kylie's, I would shave my head like Britney Spears and check in/out of rehab 3 times, too!
The weekend is here--Thank God. I need a breather from work, but there's so much to do around the house--new one and old one. I would love to paint and get started at my new one, but of course the ONE day that it is going to storm like there's no tomorrow would be on Saturday. Sooo...not sure how much progress I will make down there. Plus, they haven't made any progress on utilities and finishing it inside. I guess I feel like if I do something down there, then I can at least document some sort of change, ya know?

Ready for the Weekend...to be over!

Well, this has been a hectic weekend. On Friday night, Weston asked if he could have a corn dog for supper. Well, when I opened up the deep freeze the tub of ice cream fell out and dumped everywhere--it wasn't frozen either! I was covered in a chocolate milkshake....along with the floor and the bottom of the deep freeze. Apparently, the breaker tripped and the freezer was off. Everything was thawed out--meat, ice cream, french fries--you name it. If it was frozen, it was in there! So, I tried to figure out what was going on. I messed with the breakers and made a few phone calls. I finally found out the breaker was tripped and fixed it. But, now I had to throw out 6 bags of ruined food. So, I tried to turn on the internet--didn't work. Great. Round two. After 30 minutes, and again some more phone calls, I finally figured out the phone line was unplugged. Duh. Then, my daughter decides that I needed to be tortured with horrible behavior--so she unleashed. Not to mention, I was starting to feel ill. By this point, I was SCREAMING for some of that 1980 Calgon stuff. Do they still make it??
Saturday was better--Weston had an early morning basketball game. There was a kid on the other team that was such a trash talker!! I couldn't believe 1st graders could be that way (not to mention this is church-league!!)...Well, I couldn't control my fury with the kid when he hit my boy. That was enough--I told Kyle he either needs to switch Weston from guarding the kid or I was gonna go off. Well, he had his hands full with some other players, so he didn't get around to it. But the kid decided to take his anger out on another one of our players and practically choked him. This is why I don't coach.
But the weekend got somewhat better. We finally sold our camper--full price. And we collected on it and delivered it, so it is official!!
So, here's to a better week. I need it. My paper and presentation is due Thursday, so I have to get busy and finish it up.

Not So Good Day

Well, today was a gloomy day....not sure why, but I have just been feeling icky. Yesterday was the 5 year anniversary of the death of my Auntie Karen. It's the first anniversary of her death since my Uncle remarried. And,for some reason, it was hard. I guess as I go through these changes in my life, I can't help but think of other losses I have experienced. Friendships, relationships with relatives, dreams, hopes... Then, I get mad--mad that people who are still living can walk away from others. Then, I get sad. Sad that I have experienced several "lasts" in my life. And the circle of emotion continues. So, I guess today is just an emotional hangover from yesterday. Maybe tomorrow will be better.
My new house is coming along...I got a quote to have my cabinets in the kitchen painted--HOLY COW! The guy wanted $2800 to paint the exterior of the cabinets. Um, no. I have so much to do such as buy Weston a new bed, buy bedding for all of our rooms, buy a carport...well, you get the picture. So, I guess I will scrub the ones I have and call them good. I really hope to be in the new place by my birthday--what a great present that would be!!

Lyrical Thoughts

Cross Canadian Ragweed's "Breakdown"

"I can't be the rock, not today
Sometimes I want to pop,
sometimes I want to say
I'd like to breakdown,
but I can't find the time.
You're all looking to me
to keep it in line,
I hope I can keep it in line."

Press Release

I think it's best to release a "statement" about some changes in my life. But know that this information is all I will say....why? Because in certain areas of my life, I want some privacy and respect. So, you can read the following information, but if you know me well enough to contact me, don't ask anymore questions because I won't answer them. I refuse to explain my situation in order for someone to feel better about it.
Kyle and I have separated. It is a mutual decision. There is nothing to hide. It didn't work out.
Please respect me, respect Kyle and know that if I want to talk about it any further, I will come to you.
Thank you in advance for your friendship and your support.

Sunday Soup

Guess how much of my research paper I have gotten done since my last post? NONE! I am such a procrastinator when it comes to this paper--I really need to get something done on it. Hopefully I can wipe out a chunk this week. Our professor is considering a make-up class for last Thursday--WHAT?? Now when would any of us have extra time to squeeze another class in? I vote we write a 2 page paper over our presentation sections and go on....but we'll find out Thursday I guess!
So, I made some soup today--I have never made it before. It's a recipe from an old friend. Hopefully it's good!
And today's Super Bowl Sunday! I guess I will be sitting here watching the game at home...nothing really to go do. I'm not complaining--I am trying to make some headway on this messy house and get things ready for the new one. I bought a new chandelier for the new house since the one in the dining room is broke and definitely out-dated! I also picked out some paint yesterday--the colors are very similar to my old home, but that's OK. I really loved the look of that house.
Well, I am going to start on this paper while the kids watch their movie!

Snow Machine

The first snow of the season--it was beautiful! There were big, fluffy flakes and the town is white. And...the roads were messy. But, the good news is I made it home safely--by the time work was over, the roads had cleared up a bit. The kids had a great time playing in the snow--Kylie said she caught snowflakes on her tongue. She's a girl after my own heart!
I like snow days because I can wear jeans to work and the whole day just seems laid back and relaxed. It's nice to have a break from "corporate world" every now and then. Plus, class was canceled tonight! WOO HOO!!
So, tonight I am going to play catch-up on my homework. I really need to knock this research paper out before I start moving!